I feel as if I have been put on the front line in the biggest battle of my life and they have taken my strongest soldier. I was blessed to have a week or so with my mom before she passed. She choked to death just like she was scared was going to happen and I let her down. Nanay, I am sorry for all the mistakes I made. It's hard to find people who understand.
Well we finally took her off the respirator and the doctor's put her in Hospice to keep her comfortable while she passed on to the next life in heaven. I sat by her side, held her hand and whispered that I loved her and kissed her. The void and emptiness is so painful. I cry, it hurts so much that I curse myself on coming here, and I'm gonna see her after 9 months, but it feels like 9 years to me. I am unable to live without you, Mumma. You had such a bad marriage, but you gave to your children and taught them values beyond a saint.
The day my son was born she was so happy to hold her first grandchild and then she said it is time for her to go, that she can rest in peace now, I knew I had to let her go, she was in so much pain. She was so special, oh gosh, I sure do wish I could talk to my Mom, hug her, kiss her, brush her hair, tell her so many things. Slowly I'm accepting I cannot have my mum back, but it's not easy. It was the worst day of my life! I understand the emotional and even physical pain of losing a mother. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Ever since I can remember she always had a major drug addiction. It was like you all were my only friends, that you understood what I was living with.
I made every effort to show my love through conversations and time. More than anything, I felt this overwhelming love. I just want you back so badly just to tell you I think you're great, Mom! Whenever I see a mother and a child it makes me feel alone. We hurt because our mom passed, but we have to remember that they were in pain. I just can't imagine my life without you. I stayed with her every night and talked to her throughout. I am so, so sorry for your pain.
I am 18 year old the day my mom gave her last breath was one of those days I didn't know what to do. Right now you're still in shock, sweetie. My dad and I bathed her the day before because she could no longer move, and I still remember that. No one's love can or will ever compare to a mother's love. All the memories, both good and bad. I want to see you at least once, please. I wish for my mom to be here with me in the physical world like everyone else who has their mom with them.
Until we meet again sweet angel, we love you! And I'm so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick, strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting everytime And as I stared I counted The webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides Like indecision to call you And hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight? It's an honor to know you and know you care. She was a one of a kind, gracious, passionate, and loved me unconditionally. The grief just becomes part of my daily routine. I deeply feel like I am struggling. Almost eighteen years back I lost her. As the weeks progressed, Mom had two more surgeries, due to infection and more internal bleeding. I'm still in disbelief that she is gone.
I miss her, I miss her, I miss her, I guess I always will! It was as if everything that held me up, pushed me down. No one can fill your place till my last breath. She organized everything, all her possessions labeled with either my brothers or my name, I miss her everyday. God, I miss her so much; she was the only person I could talk to and ask for advice. And being her only child I've had to do all the arrangements myself.
It is worth noting that children today are still exposed to the long-running show featuring Jerry Mathers in the title role. I do understand the feeling of the being lost because of a sudden death. This study draws upon the experiences of a group of ethnic minority women teachers at different stages of their careers, who have faced various struggles in the teaching profession because of their gender and ethnicity. I wish I could have done so many things differently, and I cannot change anything now. My best friend, my mom, was the greatest person in my life. She was strong, independent, and fierce in her dedication to her children and grandchildren. Miss Landers is there and we still love her.
I know that we feel guilty for those times we were less than patient. Tonight I washed my hair and I always dry it using dove anti frizz stuff and hair detangler with a conair hair dryer with brush attachment that i have and I after its all dried straight use the conair staright iron I have on it. If I am living in America and someone asks me where I am from, giving the other country will make it seem as though I am a foreigner when I'm not. I hope beyond doubt that you know I loved our great time together. I knew it would be the last time I held you for the rest of my life. I just think about her all the time. I never thought that we will be living in different countries and in different time zones.