Feel awful in the mornings with anxiety, negative thoughts, nausea and full of envy- thinking of people who are happy, successful, going on trips, just wishing I could function. My mother passed away 10 months ago. The parents of an ex asked a relative how I was doing the other day, but I could not help to think: why do they care! I feel this dark cloud coming over me. How can I help my boyfriend understand depression, and to not take my lack of emotion personally? When I try to talk about it tears just kinda wail up in my eyes and just go mute. I remember going to the kitchen to get a knife to cut myself thinking that I can relieve the sadness in me but I heard one of my family members coming so I quickly put the knife away. I cancel all of my meetings, skip all of my classes and stay home from work.
There are those that can help- but be careful they are few and far between. Now my issues may be from all the years of the rotten situation I was in, but I couldn't bring myself out of it. But every now and then I feel really bad; I am my biggest critic and I am incredibly rigid, I also have added weight and for some reason I sleep a lot and overeat. When I was in high school I was hit extremely hard by a serious bout of depression. I will be saving this article to reread.
I saw a shrink, it helped a little. I strongly feel like I do suffer from some stage of depression however. I use to love working, and although I am a sad person I always had the motivation to work and study. If everyone else is accumulating more and more, you feel pressured to keep up. Everyone and everything seems to be against me, and because of that I feel useless.
You touched a lot of people with your letter. There was no feeling today, just an odd sense of shallow breath and consuming, nameless anxiety. Maybe if this happens, this feeling will go? After what I have been through with my marriage and then after that, dating an a-hole and being lied to about things I found out the truth about. Once I did, it became so much easier. When you stay stuck in regret of the life you think you should have had, you end up missing the beauty of what you do have.
I smile and still talk to my dad even though he messed up my family when I was 7 by getting into heroin. Right now I am trying to pick myself up after failing, its been a few days where i havent done anything because as i told you its hard to justify the effort. Hi Mike, I am so sorry for your loss. . Now that you are still young, you shouldn't give up! Don't miss out on the joy of being mindful or simply in the moment.
I exhibit many emotions and responses not always at the right time. My husband asked if there was anything else I'd like to destroy. I give everyday my best and smile and try to not watch the clock. My sister was manipulated and bullied to the point that she completely fell apart as a functioning human being. Its is as if my feeling are totally disconnected from me. I hate myself for raging out at the kids and afterward i feel so guilty and ashamed. Now at 53 I just ask the universe to please take me home, I am done here.
I have been thinking I cannot be depressed because I never cry yet I never feel joy and while I function it is a matter of going through the motions. After you do that, here are some things that might help:. I am going to pray for all of us. Choose to flip the switch in your mind from negative to positive. You find excuses to not touch each other anymore. God bless you, and I pray everything will work out for you. I cant concentrate on anything anymore.
My faith helps me keep going on, otherwise i would have already given up. I am too old to to go to school, and it would be a waste of time and money, because my memory is really, really bad. Being unhappy is a shot drug to kick. I feel like no one understands me, you know? I try to do things like go for a walk or maybe buy a pair of pants and food shop! I feel like no one understands me and no one really cares. Your future is something that you should see one day. This has helped me release alot of negativity to make room for happiness.
My son is social, and competitive, and into computers and tech. In your case, I would definitely start with a good therapist. Depression was never something I wanted but its always been there and I hope someday I will be able to get over this and move on. What questions should I be asking them? It seems to me that I enjoy the depression, enjoy the sadness, enjoy the anger. I don't need a significant other in my life to complete it. When I break down, I cry for about an hour, it my be short, but it is extremely intense.
Every doctor I go to- I am afraid to burden them with my problems. That's not necessarily the case though. My family finally forced me into the hospital when I started to seriously self injure, and I started seeing doctor after doctor. I feel lethargic, sad, worthless and unappreciated but with no reason. Getting out of town is the only way.