It's a way of crying out for help. Im an artist and everything you said applyes here to the point its scary. When I was in my worst funk, at one point, I had to basically let go and give myself permission to feel bad and not want to do anything. We received no love, affection or attention unless it was negative, forget about being taught any kind of life skills. Your doctor may have medications that can help you get over this 'bump' in the road. If not for my dogs I would have died long back.
I feel like such a bad mom, bad wife, bad person. Such panic interferes with thinking, and makes it harder for people to understand the motives behind self-injury. Psychotherapy is good for everybody. It can be overbearing but it can also be empowering and free you from the constraints of the physical world. So we signed off for our teen daughter to be homeschooled. I remember explaining this to a friend, who found it mystifying. Maybe you've got a great Christian radio station in your area or maybe you can find one on the web that plays a style of Christian music that speaks to you like.
It can also be a scene from a place you've never been before; a forest, a field of flowers, or a beautiful landscape. I guess its because when its taken out physically, we feel like its something we can control. The brain is so fragile-would you really want to end up as a vegetable? When we feel we have to control over our lives and the direction it is headed, we self-injure as a way to take perceived control, as in I can control what I do with my own body at least. Hi Carol Your post brought tears to my eyes. I came here seeking help and was glad to see Lanie's post, but then you are the one that preaches to Lanie, by man's words and not God's, so kind of contradictory. I'm filled with a permanent and undirected fury At 32, he's five years younger than me and, in many ways, very much a New Man.
I don't like the idea of taking drugs, as I believe my problem is a psychological one rather than biological. Hello Anonymous, Every moment is fresh and offers a new opportunity. I have learned to be proud of her for who she is and stop fretting about who she's not. I try to be happy and remember all the good that I have but the sad feeling always seems to come back. You are more than a mom, maid, taxi driver, wife, and cook! I am a natural people pleaser, because it makes me happy thinking about other people, but I am having to try and learn the we can not fix other peoples problems. I mean some much needed alone time, and don't let yourself feel guilty about it. I talk to my aunt about but then they dont really understand.
I was only able to put myself on the list and not spend my days doing things I dreaded because I should when I realized I also had to role model happiness and how to get it… And not just achievement. This means changing the way that you think about things. The mind is as receptive and delicate. I was alone for quite a few years doing it on my own. Then whatever you'd like to change about yourself, work toward changing.
Just like when a person puts a lid on a boiling pot of water and the water eventually spills out, so did my anger that I was trying to put a lid on. But I guess all of us understand. It actually took an eye opening experience for me to admit I suffered from severe depression and to go see a doc. Their problems put me into a state of worry. No job leads anywhere and yet I am unable to simply retire. I am right there with you my friend! I feel like this is going to be a good starting point to open up with.
If you don't have a Bible, there are versions available on the web that you can download. I have a wonderful hardworking husband and a beautiful daughter. However, there are circumstances when we need to practice tough love -- if you spouse is cheating or you, then your spouse is putting you at risk for venereal disease. This is also true of emotions. If you have to go for a walk, exercise til your sick , do whatever keeps you from dwelling on your anxiety.
Even though it is totally irrational. I suffer pain from my disc disease and it makes me think or fantasize abt suicide although I would never do it. Many blessings to you, you belong here. I pushed every one away held my boy I had left even closer. I have tried to become something in my life but all I ever succeeded at was being a failure.