If you are like me with zero family to lean on financially or emotionally, you too will be clawing to survive on every level and I am a witness to how impossible it is to climb back up. It is so hard to get motivated to get out there and try to find friends. He always was a weak person by nature. I am 36 and have no female friends. I never thought i be in a spot were i be afraid to go have a drink but some reason thats the biggest issue. That loving relationship with our Master has reassured and encouraged countless thousands who languished in prisons and even went to their deaths for His sake.
I have no motivation and to be honest, I am just sick of life and living. Remember, anyone can be a potential friend! I tell myself im getting out and doing something for once. The abusive was multi faceted and escalated with time. On top of all of that neither call me or message me you would think the guy who is blind would message. I had a best male friend for over 20 years and he and i would hang out every night discussing deep stuff about life and feelings and people. When I get along with someone it is sincere. I have known many people who are anti-social and talk very less and have even lesser friends but still lead a very forthcoming life.
There is no one I know that would sit there and let me unload like that unless it was a paid service. We may be total strangers but we are all in this together and should try to help each other any way we can. You could be describing my own life as well as yours. Life tends to mirror you back. I cant help it that im not very smart.
And I hear from them that they have gotten together in the meantime. I dont care to try anymore, my outside appearance isnt as nice as it use to be, no growing old gracefully for me and i have nothing on the outside. I am very outgoing but know amount of confidence will get me invited as the friends i have have lots of friends, family and not enough time. In my mind, if people happen to have happiness luck must have visited them. Many people refuse to talk about depression or other serious illnesses. So die unto it, burn your bridges, and go looking for light in a different direction. I always had trouble making friends and learning and social life has never come easy to me because of my attention problems.
I have been in loneliness for very long time. Hang in there and best wishes from someone who understands your pain. My son is very negative and has an anger problem so I have no way to get away from it as he still lives with me. I can remember a piece of advice from Marco Pierre White: When you fall down, don't let anyone help you get back up. I feel alone even though I have friends and family who do care for me…. Depression has haunted me my entire life.
A page where we can support, lift up and hopefully help each other out of depression. The only problem is we never considered one of us dying at an early age. Do any of you guys wanna get on skype or something? But having said that, it is the most educational experience you can ever have. Are you able to trust other people? She chalks it up to one of my moods. I lost many friends and family over the years.
Unrealistic expectations - Have you led your friends to believe that you will always do the organizing? Almost everyone I know at my age has a wife, kids, family and so many things going for them. I think that i have friends that dont care about me though i think that some of them used me and just hang out with their other friends and they all have their own circle of friends and i am just me being completely left out and awkward. People that have a lot lesser than I do are happier. I really want to end my life though. You spend time with them, and they bring you down.
I tried volunteering years ago and the same exact thing happened. Put yourself in social situations. Need a graphics designer or a motion graphics expert? I was afraid to walk in because i thought everyone would start stareing at me because they never seen me there before. Tomorrow I turn 51 and I have been alone on every holiday since. I lost her 1 year ago March 23rd. I have reached a point where I have learned to live under the spell of depression and isolation….
For the outside world I am a happy girl but from the inside I died just living a life with no one around. Any thoughts would be appreciated. Getting fit this way can help you meet some new friends! I too have male friends I hang out with on occasion. A lot of things in life bring me a lot of joy and I feel gratitude for many things too, but there is a deep dark gnawing of loneliness that lives inside me and follows me everywhere I go. Last year my abusive grandmother passed away, since then the little family left has each gone their own way. I am all alone in this whole world no one loves me though I love them and doing things to make them happy I always put a fake smile on my face so that they stay happy.
I feel incredibly hurt by this people. I was 13 when she lost her job yet she struggled to put me to school and that was when it started. And despite living a fairly isolated life, with caring for my son and working from home, I know that the other big reason for my alone-ness is this very pervasive feeling and belief that nobody would want to be my friend anyway. I feel I have no reason to go on. Are you uncomfortable with people knowing the real you? I believed I could survive only by cutting myself off from everyone, yet that only intensified the feeling of having nowhere to turn. My husband and I were homebodies and introverts so our social circle was not broad.